A look back...

I seem to forget that I actually have a blog until I read someones and I feel inspired :) I started to scan through my blog and profile and read my about me section. I thought, "wow, that feels like a whole different world!"

Old about me "I just graduated from nursing school in May and passed the NCLEX in June!!! Now I am attempting to find a job, start a new life and survive living back at home with my parents after having been out for 5 years... I'm a Christian girl tyring to live my according to God's word. I'm growing and changing everyday... always amazed by the Lord's mercy, forgiveness and grace he showers me with. And most importantly dreaming big about what God can do with me!"

As I'm approaching my one year mark of working, I've been thinking back on the last 12 months and how much has happened. I remember a year ago so vividly...

After 9 months of job searching and analyzing what was going to happen in my life, a job literally fell in my lap. There were so many ups and downs in those 9 months; my soul and spirit felt crushed and I wasn't sure how I was going to get out of my pit. Most of you know my story of hesitation, but my ultimate dream was to stay in San Diego... I had just finally gotten comfortable (I should of known, comfort, isn't necessarily a need with God!) I made connections at church, a small group and had made wonderful 'a God-thing' friendships. I had just completed two successful interviews at an SD hospital, of course five candidates in a race for one position, I was one of the 4 unlucky ones. I had just about decided to give up, thought, maybe a nursing career is just not for me... and BAM, I heard about one more place I hadn't tried yet, made a phone call and it felt like in a matter of 4 hours I was scheduled for an interview, then the next Monday morning I was offered a position. And got ready to go to work in less than 3 weeks.

Last year at this time I packed up my newly organized life in San Diego to move 104 miles away to begin a new life. I was apprehensive, a little sad and slightly upset. Upset, because God didn't let it happen my way. Sad, because my heart was breaking to leave behind my new life, amazing friends, my comfort zone and my church. Apprehensive, because I had no idea if I was cut out to be a nurse...

My constant prayer for those 9 months...

"Lord, thank you for your love and mercy. I know nothing is impossible for you. With you by my side I will walk through every door you open, until the day you close it. I know you are with me each step of the way, holding my head. Guide me, help me be obedient and continue to open my eyes and heart to your will, not mine."

I am so grateful for that 9 month journey, blessed for journey I'm still on...